I feel like a broken record sometimes
I think about what I can do to feel better EVERY SINGLE DAY. I’m tired a lot. Like if I had the choice to take a nap when the kids lay down or do something for myself, I usually choose the nap.
Now, I know this is a ‘season’ of life and I’m ok with that, but I want more: better
As a mom of 4, and I know I’m not alone, I feel like after doing the day in and day out tasks of life, there is not much time for me
Like I’ve lost myself somehow
I’m tired, spent, beyond exhausted, feel like crap all the time, don’t have enough energy to ‘do’ the things I wanna do
I think I have finally figured out why though
It’s pretty simple
I don’t take care of myself
Not just my weight, although that plays a huge part in health, but my mind and spirit as well
I am a Christian, but I don’t think I give HIM enough time
I was recently talking to a friend and I asked her if she hears HIM
She said she does
I said “how???”
She replied “I’m quite”
But the thing is, I’m not quite. My mind races a million miles an hour. ‘What am I gonna make for dinner? What bills need to be included in the budget this month? Did I feed the dog?
Hell, have I showered today? Please tell me I remembered to brush the littles teeth. Whose has what activity planned this week? Why can’t I find time to exercise?’
I could go on and on, but you get the picture
I’m not silent. I don’t listen. I don’t take enough time to talk to him every single day. Does he hear me when I do?
I thought a lot today of how I can be a more rounded happier individual. It is definitely different for everyone, but I think I have a few key things I need to work on.
I feel like the best way to go about this is
1. Blog about it, because it keep me accountable and i NEED that
2. Take it a week at a time and not try to change things all at once.
3. BELIEVE that by changing small things in your life slowly, that YOU can change what you want to.
4. Maybe make another mommy feel better that she is not alone
I read this article last night around 12:30 am(don’t worry, thats on the list too to work on), but they were talking about how just waking up 30 min before your kids do will change your whole day.
Having that time to yourself before anyone else needs you
To read, meditate, take a shower, sip your cup of coffee outside
Before I staying home with my children full time I was definitely up before anyone to pack lunches, shower, get ready for work, etc.
But things changed when I became a SAHM(stay at home mommy) and now being a WAHM(work at home mommy) things have DEFINITELY changed.
I * usually * edit when the kids go to bed(8-9pm). I edit till usually 11pm. I wind down from 11-12. In the bed at midnight for my daily Pinterest tagging. Fall asleep at 1. Yeah, I know, not a good routine, but it’s
worked for us. Until now.
I’m really starting to realize what my “routine” has caused:
A tired mommy
A cranky mommy
An overweight mommy(we’ll get to that another week)
A mommy who is losing site of why she decided to stay at home
A mommy who doesn’t want to miss this
Miss this life
Miss this chance
Miss this opportunity
Miss it all
So, I am going to be the ‘change of reason’
I’ll be the example
If I fail, it’s ok. I’ll get back up and do it again
This week: Get up at least 30 min before the kids. Shower, don’t shower, read, pray, edit. Just be.
Be by myself.
Lets do this
Pete: I wish I liked anything as much as my kids like bubbles.
Ben Stone: That’s sad.
Pete: Totally sad. Their smiling faces just point out your inability to enjoy anything
Kocked Up (because it makes me laugh)